Oh...that feeling when you wake up from a very good dream filled with fond memories of a good ol' friend (a long lost one, actually) and then you desperately try to find her on Facebook but it seems like she's not in there, or that she's registered under her married name which you have long forgotten since Friendster days...

Aaaaargh! 

There has been so many things driving me restless lately. I am not a big fan of New Year's resolutions but I have definitely drawn a blueprint of the different aspects of my life that I want redesigned. 

1. Health - Yesterday was the first day of my diet.  And drinking detox tea. Keep your fingers crossed for me?

2. Art - Yesterday was also the first day of this "Awaken Creativity" program that I found myself commiting to.  Today is only the second day and I already find myself lagging.  Which, of course, drives me crazy at this point.  Like I want to kick anyone who will rudely interrupt my creative thoughts.

3. Home - With the new goals in my art life, of course, comes a revamp of some home set ups.  Hubby just bought me a drafting table (which I have always lusted for but could never afford).  We found it on sale last weekend for $ 243 something cha-ching cha-ching!!!  Yeah, I know.... And it doesn't stop there.  Because I have a new art table, I am seriously planning on doing something with our floor in the art room, (because technically it was a guest room turned cave, turned studio).  I certainly would not want to mess up the carpet in there.  I have seriously considered installing *temporary* linoleum on top of the carpet, but that's too flimsy.  I have considered plastic wrap, but it looks horrible.  How about a temporary carpet on top of another? Or a huge area rug on top of the permanent wall to wall carpeting that I currently have?  Or newspapers? Anything to catch the drops and spills of paint and goo. I am checking my options at carpet stores des moines to see if there is anything else I can do.  Definitely, stripping to hardwood floors is not YET an option.  Maybe down the road...

4. Gratitude - oh yes, I have started that habit a long time ago but sometimes I'm too busy to write it down. And I like seeing things on paper.  Or the blog.  So hopefully I will carry on again.

5. Relationships - not that I've been bad.  But I'm been so busy clawing for me time most of the time that I tend to keep to myself a lot.  But you can't blame me, I feel like I am always divided into a million little pieces just to be there for everyone who needs me (and it's like the entire universe, actually), that I thirst for "me time" a lot.  Which kills some other "we time" that could have been.  But then, the "we time" is the culprit.  Or is it just imaginary?

There you go. 

New year, new life.  I sense some great new things ahead for me.